fine, last na

Bago ako mag-birthday, allow me these four rants. Perhaps, or I wish, the last rant set I'll have for the year.

First: Good news, mage-enroll na ako by June. Every plan is being straightened out. Kung baga sa isang pelikula, story conference na. May parts na pwedeng ma-scrap, pwedeng mapalitan. May possibility na ma-delay ang movie project, or totally ma-shelf. Consider the movie being "The College Project." As in this case, finances pa rin ang issue, pero slight na lang. Eveyrthing is almost settled kasi: Binigay ni Mama sa akin ang buong November payout ko to celebrate, to pay the bills, and for Christmas shopping. Under the agreement na ang 13th month pay at ang buong December payout e sa kanila, para sa business. OK fine, sagot ko na ulit ang Noche Buena at and Media Noche. Oh yeah! Still, under the agreement na beginning January 2007, itatabi ko na ang 80% ng sweldo ko for my enrollment. People, this is not to say that for the two years na wala ako sa school at nagtrabaho ako e wala akong naipon. Nakabili naman ako ng printer, at nakatulong nang malaki sa business, which could've helplessly died have I not helped out. Gusto ko lang this time, may konkretong 'pera' na nakalaan for at least a sem, maybe a year. Finances, check. Schedule dry run, check. Dahil by November ay may shift bid kami, from then on palagi na lang akong hihingi ng 11pm (Manila Time) shift. Regardless of the days off. Then I'm planning of getting schedules that will start at 9am. Para may 1hr allowance. Na alam ko namang kulang for cases such as extended calls, tarffic jam, team meeting, and the like. Thank you sa bagong online emrollment system ng Dot.Letran, pwede ako makapagview ng schedule, if not enrol online dahil hindi pa pwede dahil hindi ako enrolled for the previous sem. Actor, check. Wala lang, ready na ang mindset ko. Every day is like a planning day, surfing the Letran site, calling old college peers. Tuloy na rin ang workout para mag-iba naman ang image ko. Naks!

The rant: my schedule doesn't fit with my plans the way I want it. Una, kailangan kong mag-full load. Which consists of 9 subjects, a total of 26 units with 1 major subject, 1 irritating PE class which ruined it all, 1 Philippine Lit class na kailangan kong ulitin dahil sa INC grade ko (remember, I gave up my finals for my first ever call center job interview? nagbabasa ka ba?), and 1 Statistics class na, uhm, wala lang gusto kong magmagaling. Gusto ko ubusin ang Math class ko. Pangalawa, I'm not going to switch from full-time to part time CSR. Nagtrabaho na rin lang ako, hindi ko pa sagarin di ba? I need the money, besides. Pangatlo, I'm not giving up my gym workouts. Never. Oo, tamad ako. Pero I don't think na by then e maiisip kong umalis sa gym. Ewan ko ba. At kailangan ko itong itago sa nanay kong ayaw na naman akong nagpupunta sa gym. Get this: 9-hour shift, 1-hour work-to-school spare time, 6-hour class, 2-hour workout = 18 hours. I have only 6 hours of sleep. Less 1-hour spare time pag-uwi sa bahay at 1-hour spare time home-to-work. 4 hours of sleep. Dammit. Gusto ko lang naman mag-aral at magtrabaho, pero ayoko pang mamatay! I want to graduate, at this point I'm feeling the desire to get a higher position, and I'm so serious about being lean (read: higher position. read: lean.). Hindi ko na alam kung makakaya ko pa, di bale na lang kaya. Ako pa ba kaya ang nasa puso niya? Di bale na lang kaya. Pero mahal ko siya... Uy napakanta! Nyahahaha! Pero seryoso. Kung baga sa movie, ang hirap maging schedule master kung ang producer, scriptwriter, at actor ay ikaw mismo. ('Yung headwriter at director syempre si God).

Second: Good news, I was browsing through the Letran site, grabe nagulat ako. Si Sherman, 'yung ka-block ko nung First Year, student council president na.

The rant: self-pity mode. On. Full. Parang walang nangyayari sa buhay ko. Gone are the days na umeepekto pa ang pagmamayabang ng nanay ko na, "ikaw nga, 18 years old pa lang, may trabaho na. 'Yung iba graduate na, walang mapasukan." Pwede niyo na isuplong ang nanay ko sa Bantay Bata 163 sa kasong Child Labor na walang permit ng Department of Labor and Employment. Parang, sinasabi ng utak ko, "Ma, we're talking about academics here. Graduating na ang mga ka-batch ko... WTF?" Sherman, congrats pare. Huwag mo ako kalimutan, sa darating na halalan. Ibigay mo naman sa akin pwesto mo. Joke!

Third: Good news. Naka-move on na ako. Or hindi naka-move on, the pain somehow subsided. OK na e. I forgot all about the whole flight. I just pushed away the idea that it'll ever happen. Nakakatulong talaga ang work, with all your officemates being cheerful, they keep your mind off your stresses.

The rant: Akala ko lang pala. At ako naman 'tong si "Mr. Gullible" sabi ni TL Warren dati, kahit sa mga forwarded quotes nagpapaniwala. Nakaka-aning lang. Pagkabukas ko ng message, alam ko namang quote. Pero a part of me wished it's true. Then I scrolled down, ayun ang punchline nung joke/quote. And it did punch me. Ulol, chong, gising. May shota na 'yan, wangak! Akala ko OK na 'ko, malayo na ko sa anino mo, maganda na buhay ko... pero wala pa rin. Kahit anong gawin ko... lagi na lang akong talo... lalung-lalo na sa 'yo! (Uy... Chris, saang movie 'yan? Hahahaha! I know you know!).

Fourth: Good news, may pasok na ang 02 November. Sabi ko dati kapag nagkaroon ng pasok ang birthday ko, pwede na 'ko mamatay. Kinilabutan tuloy ako. Hehehehe! Pero cool kasi may pasok na.

The rant: It's on a very wrong timing. If I'm in school, I'd love the news. I'll go out with friends. E kaso, nasa work ako. It should be a holiday para may holiday pay ako. Screw you, Gloria! Waaaaa!

Haaaaay... It's the last week of October. Kailangan maganda ang mood... I'm looking forward to two evaluations this week. Kailangan kasi 4 evals a month, naka-leave ako nung week 2 kaya wala.

Looking to a rant-free year next year. Hm...